Liar Liar

Yesterday I was "off." 

I felt horrible emotionally. Like, sick and toxic. I don't know exactly what was wrong. I couldn't put my finger on it. It's too early for PMS (or it should be...PMDD?) 

I can't look inside myself or listen to my inner voice to figure these things out. 

Why?

My Inner Voice is a liar. 

It's something we went over in counseling...My inner monologue isn't like everyone else's. I can't necessarily listen to it. It tells me all of the bad things (most blown out of proportion) 

I've been struggling to find balance lately. Balance between family and work. Balance in my diet. 

See, I see things as black and white a lot of times. Foods are good and bad. My diet will make me skinny or uber fat. I'm a good parent or a sucky parent. Etc...

I'm struggling with a balance between "Restrict all the foods," eat healthy, and "Eat all the junk because it doesn't matter and I'll be fat anyway." 

I have to retrain my body to not hate food. It's absolutely zero fun. 

Sorry for the downer post...I'll have some recipes in the next day or so.